whispers in my mind

I can still hear whispers of your voice in my mind

Kind of like my favorite song or scene from my favorite movie

Will this bad dream ever end

Today at the hospital I felt like I was dancing on the lines reality and pure insanity

I know other people are going threw worse, but I often think I don't care, the only thing that matters is him and this

Having to be strong for not only yourself but for others is a hard thing

Especially when you just want to give up and just give in

But what will doing any of those things do for the situation

All these emotions happy, angry,sad,helpless,worried,sick, but mostly sad for him

Often I think how could God allow this to happen to him someone soo faithful

But I can hear his voice telling me "God don't make us sick, but he does heal the sick"

I know the God I serve is a healer and a fixer

Only a little faith is needed to move a mountain

Sooo as I fast tomorrow I'll be asking God to renew my faith in him and his abilities tooo do just what his word says he will do

I asked summer today if he could promise me that he would be okay in time..And then seal his speech with the words " I promise"...And for the first time he told me that was something he couldn't do..

All words that followed from that point on seemed like empty solom drifting in to space and air

His voice I hear in my head very faint but consistent...

Sleepy and Sad.....